Monday, March 22, 2010

Monday Blues

I've been so busy with life sampai nak update blog sendiri pon tak sempat..tskk..
Rase stress jugak..
Bila stress mula la tangan gatal jek nak book holiday..
Hehehe..
But changes will happen in near future.. so tak boleh la nak spend sesuke ati.. hehehe..
(Sila jangan speku..changes does not mean we're having a baby :P)
 
Having said that..
Most of my frens are now on their 2nd or 3rd babies..
Nak kata i depress pon tak jugak..
Rezeki masing2 kan..
Tapi memang harap jugak lah i'll get one soon..amin..
 
I have not gone thru more complex fertility approach..(i.e. IUI or IVF) 
Praying our hardest tak payah pegi sampai stage IVF.
But at the back of my mind, i have this nagging question.
"What if.. we're really not meant to have our own baby"
I hope that will not be the case.
I hope we'll be parents soon.
 
But maybe we're not ready? that's why Allah delay His precious gift to us.
For instance..
 
Kalau kat restoran tgh makan sedap2.. budak main larik2 dan pusing2.. dan mak pak plak biarkan ajek..aku runsing..
 
Kalau naik plane..ade plak baby nanges.. nak plak tuh seat depan atau belakang aku.. aku runsing..
 
Aku suke tido.. hahahahha.. sket2 tido.. sket2 tido..
 
Tapi tuh semua boleh adjust kan bila kita ade anak sendirik.. kan? kan?
 
I'm also interested in international adoption (feeling angelina jolie gittew,,hhahahah)..
But seriously, I dun mind adoption anak mat salleh or anak korea or anak jepun..
But i bet the cost are outrageously expensive.. and there's a possibility of child trafficking thus melecehkan hidup kitaorang nanti..ahahahha..
Anybody know much about this? please share with me ok..
 
Okla.. I'm dun rambling..
Maybe due to lack of oxygen in my brain.. hidung tersumbat sejak semalam..
Kan best kalau hari nih cuti..
Boleh tido lama.. dan tengok dvd.. dan layan Hiro gomok dan si Charlie..
 
Hopefully my next update will not be as depressing as this one.
Later~
 

4 comments:

a.z.n.e.e said...

yup.. maybe u r right.. we are so bz here n there.. mcm kdg2 lebih sellfish pada kemahuan diri sendiri yang lebih...

tapi kdg2 pelik jugak yg mane kawen awal, mcmne dorg boleh handle everything smoothly walaupun mmg xde pengalaman...

kdg2 aku rasa ibu2 yang awal2 ada anak dorg mgkn lebih bersedia untuk jadi ibu.. dan tak kesah dgn shopping, blogging, traveling, enjoying etc.. tulus gitu nak jaga anak.. tapi kita adoo?? huhuhu..

Allah know everything.. Hope masa akan berubah dan kita akan berpeluang to be a parents too..

dieya said...

kelakor pulak aku baca ko nak amik anak angkat omputih, korea ala2 angelina jolie.. hahaha.. glamorous gitu!

don't worry babe, cepat atau lambat pasti ada hikmahnya. i'm sure when the time comes you'll be an amazing mum.

KARISMA said...

DOT, Kita perlu tidur, untuk bangun lebih gagah pada hari esoknya.

dot said...

Thanks girls for the support :) ..In life, sometimes we're up and sometimes we're down kan.. so once in a while konferm aku akan meluah perasaan. huhu