Sunday, September 30, 2007

Mrs Dot's thought on..

1) Ramadhan, puasa, Syawal and Aidilfitri..

Alhamdullillah..dengan takdir dan kehendak Allah, Ramadhan kali ini aku sambut dengankehadiran suamiku disisi..Memula start puasa tuh..Liat betul aku nak bangun sahur..ikot hati..aku buat buat tak sedar jek sampai subuh..hahahah...kalau dulu mase aku bujang..paling tidak pon aku jangkau jek air kosong kat sebelah tilam..minum sambil tutup mata..hahah..

Kengkadang..tilam aku pon tumpang minum..tapi dah jadik bini orang nih..tak sampai hati la plak,aku nak sambung tido..kang majuk plak sang suami..walaupon mesti dia taknak ngaku dia majok..hahahha.."Sayang tanak bangun eh..ok lah takpe lah..tidur lah.." dengan nada suara yg lemah..Uwwaaaaa...harus mak terus bukak mata nyeh..bingkas bangun carik tombol pintu..seb baik tak terantuk dahikat dinding..hehehe...

Tapi tuh masa memule jek la eh..sekarang tidak lagik..alarm bunyik jek mak dah efficientterus bangun siapkan sahur untuk En. Suami ye..hehehe..Most of the time siap masakkan lagik..tapi takde le akusaiko pepagi bute tuh nak masak complete meal nasik + 3 lauk ok..I'm getting better..but not to that extend! hahahah..biasa nye En. Suami pon tak lalu nak makan byk2 masa sahur..so i'll cook whatever he requested the nitebefore..maggi goreng ke..burger k..sandwich ke..or panaskan makanan semalam...hehehe..Okla tuh..

Sejak puasa nih..asek makan sedappp ajek..and sometimes byk jugak makan free..heheheh..but i have classes 3 days during the working days..so byk jugak time makan jek apepe kat sekeliling CM tuh..But one of my faveret is Al-Andalus @ JalanDamai..Sedap sehh..buffet baru RM30 jek sorang..Kadang2 kalau balik awal tuh..masakkan lah jugak untuk En. Suami..or weekends,kalau tak pegi memana, I would test my newly acquired hobby..cooking for hubby..hehhee..And the best part is..I have a few frens (No. 1: Cikgu Juwairiah) yg tak lokek ilmu, and would gave me recipe and would gladly coach me if i forget any of the ingredients..hehehe..
Ye lah..mak dah takde..kalau tak dulu mesti kalau tatau apepe angkat jek tepon and i can asked my beloved mother..

On the sensitive subjek of my arwah mak..

Despite the goodness of Ramadhan..and the happiness of celebrating it with my Husband..During this time is when i misses my late mother the MOST!! It feels like only yesterday that my arwah mak passed away..The pain is so fresh and the wound is still open and hurting!! Last year, i lost my mom during the final week of Ramadhan..

Thus, this year it's very painful to be reminded of that day! EVERY TIME that i think of my arwah mak (not just cakap kat mulut, but direct kat hati) air mata pasti berlinang linang..sometimes, i would be okay one second...gelak gelak ngan husband..tetiba husbandturun bawah nak amik tepon..husband naik atas balik..tengok bini tengah teresak esak atas katil..sian husband aku..konfius dia..seb baik lah i got one hella understanding husband..even before we were married last year, he's my strongest pillar of supportduring that bitter time..He's always there for me..hampir tiap hari selama aku kat umah opah tuh, dia datang kasik support..I am very thankful..i love you so much Husband..

Solely due to the above reason, i dun feel the mood to really celebrate hari raya..YES, i will embrace Syawal dengan penuh kesyukuran..but thesemangat nak buat preparation and the semangat excited nak raya tuh seriously dah tak wujud inside me..Lucky husband cool..sebab aku seriusly tak eager, seperti mana kebanyakan pasangan yg menyambut rasa bersama first time..cari baju matching and sebagainye..I really dun feel like doing any preparation..not like last time anyway..Seb baik ade baju yg di buat masa kawen dulu, yg bulih matching..kali nih cuti pon tak amik lelame..

sebab utama sebab cuti pon dah takde..but i am just not really looking forwardto it..Arwah mak adalah seorang yg full of life and she being with us really really really brings out the mood in everyone..so this time (2nd time, the first Raya,we just lost her for 5 days! before hari raya) around, when she is no longer here with us, we really really feels the impact..terasa sangat..One tradition for sure will be changed..throughout my childhood, we always balik kampung abah first day, then continue on to kampung mak..but after a while (I'm in form 1 kot), we no longer stay at kampung abah, cause opah side abah pon beraya dgn kita..atau beraya dkt KL with her other son..So since then, we always balik kampung mak..

so this year is gonna be the first that we are not going to be at Malim Nawar on Raya Eve..Abah requested he wanted to Semayang Raya @ Ayer Tawar, and i would not let him be by his own, on raya eve..and since this first time beraya dengan suami is my turn (En. Suami dah offer since sebelom kawen lagik ok)..We'll be in Ayer Tawar, tapi akan balik Malim Nawar after semayang raya..mainly untuk menziarahi kubur mak..Wah..meleleh leleh hingus aku meluah perasaan malam nih..

Anyway, at least this year I'll be happy to have a husband by my side during raya..at least sure can collect one ang pow..huhuhu..I think it might be at least another 2-3 years before the wound would heal..but the scar would always remain!ibarat a spot where, one heal, akan tumbuh rumput rumput baru di sekeliling..tapi kat tengah tengah kawasan tuh would always be takkan tumbuh dah rumput..once you lost your mother, takkan ader dah patah tumbuh hilang berganti..for sure takkan ader pengganti..even if my dad does decide to remarry, which i'm not gonna oppose, no one would even come close to replacing my mother..Cuma masa saja yg dapat mengurangkan the sense of sadness that waves in and out anytime..
Maybe one day when i were to have my own child, perasaan nak sambut raya tuh datang balik..insyaallah..

2) Office baru PwC @ 1 Sentral

Our new office is so COOL..macam langit and bumi as compared to office lama @ Jalan Raja Laut..hehehe..sini canggih..lift pon buttonless..hehehe..Tapi satu jek yg paling tak best..parking jauhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh nak mampos!..as at date, aku belom lagik drive sendirik..harus lah suami ku yg baik hati lagikpenyayang itu yg hantarkan..hehehe..best betul ader suami nih..

3) Others

Dah dekat 3 bulan kawen..sijil kawen pon tak amik lagik..seb baik abah baik hati dah amikkan..hehehe..as an alternative, aku just simpan gambar pada kad kawen as prove of marriage..kot kot lah kena cekop ke aper..heheh..En. Husband still refuse to show lots of P.D.A, dengan alasan takde sijil kawen..nanti kena tangkap..ek eleee..malas betul nak layan..

Si boboi my adopted kucing gemok..dah 1 hari tak berjumpa..mana lah peginye budak gemok nih..sejak sahur malam semalam dia tak datang umah aku..sedehh plak rasa nye..rindu kataksi aksi manja mengada ngada nak mintak makanan tuh..makanan dia pon byk lagik balance tak habis tuh..huhuhhu..Demmit, i'm so attached to that fatso cat already..he's owner (my right side neighbour) is moving home in October (so soon ah?)..so that means si boboi is gonna move too..uwwaaa..Harus tak aku kidnap jek kucing gemok tuh? Dia sangat kiyut, warna and kegemokan, sebijik macam Garfield..uhuhuhhu..I just hope he has not move anywhere yet, as I've not said my goodbyes yet..ade nangis lagik satu round nih karang...uuuwaaaaa....

And NO, my hormonal imbalance is not due to "pembawakan budak", but it is solely contributed to PMS..hahahaha...yeahhhh..we ladies can still use this magic word even after we're married!
OKlah, esok ader klas pagi..adehh..malas nye nak bangun..aku nak naik gi pelok En. Husband tido..sian dia tido sorang2 kat atas..aku busy blogging kat bawah..hahahaha..

Selamat Berpuasa (Jalan puasa yang yok..pagi pagi bukak periuk)

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