Goodbye Miss..Hellow Missus...

Dear frens.. Its been a longgggggggggggg while since i last blogged.. Nak kata busy..agak busy lah jugak main game yahoo lepas satu satu kan...hhahahaha.. Tapi sebab takde internet connection kat umah.. Anyway, a lot of things in my mind right now..But since my beloved father yg baru sampai dari Perak tengahari tadik dah menguap dekat 2 juta kali, despite the vanilla latte yg aku belanja dengan sisa sisa kerak nasik gaji bulan lepas aku..kesian lah plak kan..so let's keep this as simple as time permit.. hehheheh.. Firstly, lets talk (or more like i talk and you read okay)..about;

1) ME BEING MRS LEMAN next week..

Bapakkkk lahh nervessssssssssss...uuuwwaaaa...mase aku bertunang nearly 2 years ago, aku nerves jugak.. but nothing as compared to this time...giler babas punye neves..believe or not, sampai makan pon dah tak lalu.. Bulih masok Ripley's gua cakap loe..tapi more to hanya makan mende mahal2 jek lalu..especially kalau orang belanja..hehehehe.. lorat sungguh aku nih...ye la..like contoh tengahari tadik..aku order nasik goreng kampung kat Vichuda, punye la sedap.. tapi makan dalam 4-5 sudu jek..then perut nerves, terus tak lalu makan..kang muntah dalam pinggan so tak cool okay..

Tapi malam tadik ayong belanja kat Sakae Sushi..larat jugak aku habiskan nasik daging + 1 crab amende + 2 salmon amende... huhuuhhu.. Anyway, bilik tido dot sekarang seriyes macam kedai jual baju bundle!! My baju baju are literally BERSEPAH satu bilik... atas katil, tepi katil, atas lantai, tepi pintu..Since i need to kosong kan 1 almari untuk my bakal roomate kan.. So aku amik longgok atas katil..tapi semalam sampai kol 5 pagi belom setel..aku ngantuk..aku turunkan jek baju ke lantai and tido.. hahahhaa... Aku sungguh gemok sehh..semalam banyak gak baju yg dah ketat or dah lamaaa tak pakai..aku campak jek ketepi.. nanti nak bawak balik kampung untuk opah sedekahkan pada sesapa yg berminat..Banyak gak yg sayang sayang.. tapi pujuk hati nanti lagik banyak buang, lagik banyak bulih beli baru..hahahha..

Tapi aku nih dah miskin siyutttt...like really really tahap gaban punye miskin..huhuhhuhu..

Takpe la, Insyallah next month ader la rezeki lebih tuh..kalau takde pon..next month dah dapat husband, so leh suruh husband belanja makan kalau sengkek..heheheheh..best best.. Ader banyak gilerrrr mende kecik kecik yg aku nak kena setel.. And did i mentioned that i'm a nerves wreck? uwwaaa....

"Semerit" or dulang tembaga yg arwah mak aku baru beli masa aku nak bertunang dulu..dah hilang.. 10 bijik ok..SAKIT BETUL hati..puas bapak aku carik satu umah..tapi tak jumpa..mende tuh bukannye kecik nak misplaced kan.. Sgt high possibility orang pinjam and tak pulang..sebab arwah mak sakit like 4 month after aku bertunang..and after that dia busy kuar masok sepital for chemo and stuffs..huhiuhuhuh..so aku sangat terkilan lah jugak..sebab mak belikan tuh untuk kitaorang senang anak beranak tak payah menyusahkan nak kena pinjam dari orang, tapi nih dah hilang..terpaksa la aku meminjam jugak.. Tuh lah salah satu mak nye style yg aku kagom..sebab dia ade semua mende mende..and paling tak suka meminjam barang orang.. Aku tak kisahlah orang nak pinjam barang dia, tapi kalau pinjam tuh pandai pandai lah nak pulang kan.. Enuff about that, dun let that spoil my mood.. And..I'm still nerves... But excited at the same time..

I'm GETTING MARRIED!!! After 9 years and 2 months 21 days.. we are finally getting married..AMIN!

2) MY FABULOUS HEN NITE!!

Demmmm...that was the best so called last party that i would have as a "cik zarina".. hahahahah..But my frens dress me up in white, and also make me wore white veil siap ngan tiara.. So langsung takde orang nak ngurat aku malam tuh..as the sign is so OBVIOUS..hahahaha... But still, encik tunang tak tido malam tuh sebab risaukan aku..heheheh..Chill la sayang, kitaorang tak jadik hire male stripper!!..hehehhe.. kidding!! And that nite 6 of us including me spend the nite at the Ascott Hotel..where the other hens dah hias ngan balloons and love shape heart and candles..so sweet girls...I LOVE IT...ALL OF IT..Termasok cake bentuk "pedang"...hahahahhahahahahah...You gals are the BEST..

3) OTHERS

There's a lot of things happening thru out my last entry, tapi aku dah tak ingat daa.. Yang aku ingat..AKU DAH NAK KAWEN SIYUT!!...hhahahahaha... Anyway, one close fren of mine is hafing a hard time at the moment..Hang on there honey.. whatever you decide, we'll support you time and again..Bagus jugak nanti bulih carik pengganti yg sesuai masa wedding aku ok..heheheh...cuma just make sure kau tak melawa lebih daripada aku ok.. And yet another close fren of mine is hafing a dunno how to describe time..Quate from her : "ENtah la..aku pon tak sure aku happy ke tak?" huhuhhu..parah nih...takp takpe..again..we'll be there for you babe.. But just dun make any rush decision ok..Think of yourself first before you think of another.. And if you think any decision you make might hurt him..SO WHAT!!!! He's officially your ex rite..and that's how exes are treated..huhuhuhu...

CONCLUSION:

Everybody have their own thing and their own problems..but it differs from one another.. SOmetimes, as an observer, it's so much easier to "SAY"..but as the lead actress, it so much harder to "DO".. Life is unfair..So cherish it as much as you can..(This also applies to yours truly here, who's so sad in being miskin..huhuh).. I'm FAT but i'm HEALTHY (alhamdullillah)...I'm BROKE but I'm HAPPY...and i forgotten the rest of the lyrics..heheheh.. Okay frens..Before i type off.. I hope to see you there to share my happiness and special day! Next time we meet, insyaallah, I'll be MRS LEMAN..

Signing off --> Dot yg bujang dan bakal bergelar isteri orang

Study vs Shopping?? Shopping menang tanpa bertanding!!

uhuhuhuh..i've got absolutely ZERO mood for studying..ZERO..NONE WHATSOEVER.. demmmm..and the exam is in 24 hours time more or less..huhuhuh..nak panic pon dah tak gune.. that's the thing..terok betul aku nih..sampai dah tak panic dah pon..i'm so whatever!

uhuhhu.. Matilah..this must be the WORST "tak study" ever..Baca sikit (bulih kira ngan jari berapa ayat aku dah baca ok!!) ..tido banyak..macamana?? huhuhuh..maybe aku dah muak tengok notes yg sama ulang ulang kali..tapi tak pass pass jugak...uuwwaaa... macam mana nih?? I should not have taken the paper this round..tuh lahhh..tamak lagik..shud have postpone jek till December..rite now I'm more focus at being nerves/excited for my upcoming big day..huhuhu..
Voiced my concern to future roomie..and he very cool and calmly answered.."It's ok sayang..let's focus on getting married first okay"..huhuhuhhu...I WISH..i could give the same answered if there's ever a need to do another face-to-face with the Partner..huhuhuh..touch wood!! touch wood!! Tawakal jek la..esok pagi jek lah lepas bangun tido (tatau pukul berapa..hehe)..kita try last minute study..mungkin esok kita akan panic!

Today i spent the whole day..a long blissful sampai tapak kaki tak rasa 11 hours of makan2 + shopping + makan2 + tgk wayang + shopping + makan2 lagik..outing with Ayong..hahahahah...sungguh gumbira...dah lama tak shopping.. Ingatkan nak gi Semua House..sekali hujan lebat gile tak ingat..and kitaorg parking kat tempat takde atap kat OU tuh.. so masok lah balik..terus pegi beli tiket wayang...semua cite dah penuh..so we bought the ticket for "Hors de prix" or "priceless" in English..its a french movie..and we enjoyed it very very much..recomended to be watch ok.. I bought 4 pairs of new shoes..including one for the nikah..one of it is the long-overdue-aku selalu teringin nak beli-terompah.. heheheh..jatuh cinta pandang pertama!!..ayong said that i look so much like a "bimbo" walking in them..hahahah..bimbo tak bimbo.. aku nak jugak beli..rasa nak pakai tido jek..heheheh..over tau nyeh!

Telifon plak tetiba rosak Jumaat ari tuh..bangang betul..so takde tepon sampai esok..and tak beli jugak jam loceng tadik.. Abah and Opah dah balik Perak..sunyi rumah takde diaorang..
Went to Ikin's and Shabab's wedding on last Saturday nite..It was beautiful..Congratulations to them both!!

I haven't seen any of my fwens for these straight 2 weeks..huhuhu..semua orang pon busy..especially aku yg sungguh busy tak study nih!!.. hahahah...tapi busy ke hulu ke hilir temankan abah setelkan persiapan kawen..yer lah..dah jadik anak yatim nih.. kena lah tulung abah buat preparation..kesian sangat kat abah..aku sure dia pening..and most of the time aku lah tempat dia mengadu and berbincang pon..Kat taman rumah aku kat Perak tuh..Abah would be the first "BAPA TUNGGAL" yang akan kawenkan anak.. pressure tak pressure ah..huhuhuh..it's ok abah..we'll survive..insyallah and hopefully everything would go as smoothly as possible...
Everytime i'm thinking about this..a new pimple would be born on top of my forehead..sampai sekarang nih dah takde tempat nak tumbuh dah.. aku pon tak pernah pernah dari remaja sampai sekarang beli ubat jerawat..nih dah start dah pakai ubat jerawat..hahahah..dah tahap desperate dah nih..

Wish me luck everyone..at the rate i'm studying (which is NADDA!!)..i would be needing lots and lots and lots of it come Tuesday.. and wednesday dah start kerja!! huuuwaaaa...the end of my 18 days of holiday..huhuhuh..i am sure sure sure gonna missed my Leave.. Goodnite..

PS: "Pia", nak jumpa tak hari nih?? Call aku ok (rumah)..i need the 9 fundamental amende tah yg kau janji nak bagi tuh..and nanti kita gi exam sesama ok?

Tok kadi oh Tok kadi

Hellow..It's so good to be back at my own bed..in my own room..typing away at my own laptop "kompeni" pinjam..heehhe..Did anyone missed me? Nehh.. i dun think so kan..

Anyway..patut nye dah balik semalam..but so many many many urusan to setel back at Perak..
Semalam dah selamat jumpa dengan tok kadi..perjumpaan alhamdulliah berjalan sangat lancar..
Aku ditemani abah + 2 orang saksi borang (pakcik pakcik kawan abah yg dok setaman jugak) ..gabra siyut..nerves gile gile..macam aku plak yg menikah..hahahah..jantung dag dig dug macam nak terus performed lagu "dag dig dug" Haiza tuh..tapi aku tak berani lah kan..konferm konferm bapak aku lempang aku sekali kalau aku tetiba jek berdangdut Haiza depan tok kadi tuh..ehueheuheuheuh...

Anyway, dah menggelabah, apepe yg tau pon rasa macam dah tatau...hahaha..tok kadi tuh cakap lah "Biasa nye saya akan tanye lah bakal pengantin, soalan2 macam rukun nikah.." --> Terus aku blank..hahahah..bukan lah aku tatau..dulu masa form form masa sekolah dulu kan dah belajar semua..and masa kursus kawen tu aku confirm lah ade belajar kan (kalau aku tak tertido lah)..heheheh..tapi tetiba rasa trus blank..hehehe..seb baik tok kadi tuh sambung --> " tapi tuh biasanye la..hari nih saya tak mau tanye pon..tapi awak tau kan..?" hahahaha..aku pandang tok kadi..pehtu pandang abah..pehtu sengih sengih and gelak gelak jek..hahahah..ekspressi muka yang begitu ketara --> "Ye ek aku tau???" ahahahhaahha...seb baik dia tak persue lah tanye..Tapi aku tau weih..hehehe..

Rukun Nikah :
1) Lelaki --> yg original
2) Perempuan --> yg original
3) Wali --> abah , datuk, abang etc..
4) 2 org saksi --> syarat2 saksi; Islam, Lelaki, Baligh etc...
5) Lafaz ijab dan qabul..

Seee...i told you i knew..heheheh...tapi masa tuh mungkin gagap gagap gak ler menjawap..gabra lagik..heheheh..

Then dia suruh istighfar..belom sempat dia abes cakap aku dah istighfar..hahahah..then tok kadi tuh cakap.."sabar..sabar..belom lagi"..hahahah..aku sengih2 jek lah..sebab tadik dia kata..ade jugak setengah org yg tatau istighfar..so belom sempat dia abes cakap aku pon "go" jek lah..heheheh..

Then baru lah dia suruh istighfar, mengucap , selawat etc.. sempat tok kadi tuh cakap .."aikk..ketor kamu ye!" ...hahahahah..of course..aku dah gabra tahap gaban dah tuh..seb baik bukan aku yg nak kena akad nikah nanti..hahaha..mau berpeluh2 2 baldi..nih baru ber5 aku dah gabra..bayangkan penuh orang satu masjid nanti...hahahah..

Masa pegi pagi tuh..dot dah very the compose and tenang dah..and keep reminding myself..apepehal..jangan menangis..sekali bila tok kadi tuh tanye.."Mak mana? patut bawak mak sekali mintak ampun"..huhuhuhuh...dot dah nak break down dah..air mata pon dah nak bergenang dah..tapi dot control oohh...jawap dengan tenang jek..."Mak saya dah takde.."...(dalam hati dah banjir dah)..

Then dia suruh mula baca akuan beri kebenaran nikah..(even tho dia sempat sound cakap bapak aku ade kuasa veto nak menikahkan aku ngan sesape saja yg dia pilih! heheheh..)..Sebelum tuh dia suruh mintak ampun and mintak izin daripada abah dulu..Bila dia suruh jek salam and pegang tgn abah..semua dinding "kemacho-an" ku runtuh..huhuuhuhu..sambil berjurai jurai air mata..sambil mintak ampun dengan abah halalkan makan minum semua..aku tgk abah pon dah sebak dah tgk aku nangis..tapi abah macho, takde lah cembeng menangis teresak esak macam aku thu..huhuhuhuh...

Tapi serius ah..memang shahdu..seb baik suruh buat sekarang..kalau masa nikah nanti..belom apepe rosak make up mak dengan air mata nyeh..huhuhu
Cause aku memang sangat sangat manja and close dengan abah..dari kecik sampai tua bangka macam sekarang nih..dari kurus slim sampai gemok gedebab macam sekarang nih..memang sgt close dengan abah..

Dulu sampai darjah 6 abah dukung or piggy back lagik dari bawah sampai bilik tido tetiap malam..sekarang nih nak piggy back lagik mau patah pinggang bapak aku..hahahah..dah lebih kurang sikit jek lagik nak seberat anak ikan paus biru..huuhuhuh..

Nak cerita dari lahir sampai sekarang, memang tak habislah satu blog..so in summary, abah adalah sumber inspirasiku, tempat aku meminta duit belanja pegi pasar malam, mintak duit pegi beli coco crunch, beli baju raya, tempat mengadu kalau kena marah ngan arwah mak dulu, tempat mengadu segala macam masalah dunia dan lain lain..

Cuma satu jek confirm yg dia tak..abah bukan lah tempat aku nak belajar matematik..hahahaha..sebab --> ABAH GARANG GILER kalau mengajar maths..aku ingat lagik once and the only once aku belajar maths ngan dia..masa tuh darjah satu..dia tanye --> 1 x 1 berapa?? aku blur blur jawap = 2 ..hahaha..terus kena tengking bergegar satu rumah.."1 x 1 = 2 ..Mana kamu belajar..Boy (my bro), pegi ambik rotan!!"..hahaha..abang aku dengan rela hati konon kunun helpful anak yg soleh dengan pantas pergi amikkan rotan..keji tak? huhuhu..rotan belom sampai aku dah nangis dah..lepas tuh dia tanye soalan pon semua pon dah blank tak leh jawap..kehkehkeh..so itulah jek sekali aku teringin nak belajar maths ngan dia..anyway, cikgu cikgu maths aku especially My Yong ngan Mr Ng memang power nak mampos..so balik umah tak yah tanye abah..and result maths aku especially masa sekolah rendah and menengah rendah dulu..tak pernah lah tak memuaskan..so abah takleh aa nak banyak komplen...hehehhe...

Makin dekat tarikh..aku nih makin stress...perkampungan jerawat atas dahi yg biasa nye muncul setahun sekali time final audit KPJ..dah muncul balik sekarang..banyak gile gile aku tengok pon geli and takot..hopefully berjaya hilangkan within 1 month nih..kalau tak kenalah mak andam aku kerja overtime nanti..hehehe..

Exam makin lama makin dekat..malas sungguh aku nak belajar..hajat di hati lepas tulis blog nih aku nak study lah..tapi dalam sedar atau dalam mimpi belom dapat dipastikan lagik..hehehe...Nih pon dah pukul 1 pagi nih..

Goodnite everyone..jangan jeles esok dot masih cuti..

I have sin

Alaaaa..uwwaaa...baru jek tak sampai 2 hari berazam tanak makan McD..today at 530 pm, dot belasah lagik satu cheese burger and fries...hehehheh..i just cannot help it..time2 cuti nih..malas sungguh aku nak melangkah keluar umah..masak?? masak maggie pon malas..sementara bujang nih baik aku menikmati hidup cara bujang seratus peratus..that means;

1) Breakfast --> depend tgk aku bangun pukul berapa..kalau awal..maybe biskut cicah air nescafe or nasik lemak paru (tuh pon kalau ayong or abah belikan)..kalau tak..kita lunch jek lah terus...

2) Lunch --> makan sesuke hati (normally kalau kat office kat kedai mamak, kalau kat client kat sekitar sekitar situ, kalau kat umah..depends lagik..kalau dah lambat jugak macam hari nih..kita dinner terus..

3) Dinner --> Biasanye idaman..tapi kalau malas..McDonald (drive thru jek)..or sekali sekala maggie..or tak payah makan langsung (wahahahhaha...tipuuuuu...tipuuuu...amhat jarang2 sekali berlaku aku tak pernah makan langsung...especially sejak pindah dok Damansara nih..)

Dot dah tau dah sebab ape dot gemok slow sket masa kat HSBC dulu..sebab sana susah nak access fast food..drive thru pon takde...delivery lagiklah jangan mimpi...hehehhe..paling koman pon makan kat terminal bas tuh jek..kalau nak grand sket, kat nasik ayam malaysia tuh haa..takpon bawak bekal roti dari umah jek!! Seriyes tak tipu oke..

Then pindah pulak puchong..fast food banyak..tapi kena kluar ke jalan besar..so lebih selalu order in..faveret sungguh Domino's ngan McD masa nih..or kalau tak pon, makan kat kedai Richinie belakang rumah dengan Juju..or sorang2 pon aku boleh selamba jek makan kat situ..or beli jek mihun 7eleven..and selalu jugak sedar diri untuk diet, and makan roti bakar with tuna jek..

Tapi sejak pindah Damansara nih..uishhhh..naik lemak sungguh..lemak pon bertambah-tambah..hehehe...most of the malam, melepak makan dinner kat Idaman..kengkadang kalau dah dinner tempat lain pon, still boleh habiskan roti bom satu..heheheh..or kalau malas nak gi Idaman, mesti singgah drive thru McD..or paling malas pon nasik paprik kat Vichuda...uuuwaaa...patut lah makin gemok..aku makan macam raksakse...

huhuhuhuhuhu...kalau kengkawan aku baca nih..mesti diaorang cakap --> " haa..TAU TAKPE!!"...hahahahha..siyut ahh...

Tapi masa arwah mak aku sakit dulu..dia langsung tak lalu nak makan..kena pujuk rayu and pakse pon, takmo or tak selera or tak boleh nak makan..so, lepas tuh, aku selalu ingatkan diri sendiri, selagi aku boleh nak makan nih..baik makan ajer...huhuhhuh..tapi betullah jugak..maybe i'm overdoing it!! hahahahah...ye lah..ye lah..aku makan roti bakar (fiber) ngan tuna jek lah malam2..masalahnye, sejak start study leave nih, malas nak kuar umah sampai la petang..sanggup berlapa satu hari suntuk..so kalau malam tuh nak makan roti jek..alamat menggigil lah satu badan kelaparan..hahahha..

I'm going back to Perak the day after tomoro..yeay..that means --> MAKAN FREE!!...yeay..abah ler belanja..sape lagik..haa?? nak kena masak ke? Tengoklah dulu kalau rajin sempat..heheheh...
Grey's Anatomy dah season finale dah..ishh..tak puas hati betul..sebab aku ingat tuh bukan season finale..kalau tau tuh season finale, mesti aku tengok dengan penuh kasih sayang..tapi geram ah tgk episod tuh..banyak contoh contoh orang yg in denial..and also orang yang takde masalah, tapi create masalah..pening-pening...

My "Pia" dah kembali tersenyum...wahahhaha..tuh lah, aku dah cakap dah..poyo jek lebih tuh...hehehhe..
My Shaz..unidentified..
My Nizam..undetected...weiihhh, kau nih busy mengalah kan menteri..betul ke bulih siap nih bunga telur aku?? Kang last minit tak sempat nanti, egg kau mak tarok atas pahar oke? hehehhehe
Kak Long..stress sokmo..jangan jeles2..kerja rajin rajin! hahahahha (evil laugh)
Abang Berg ngan Louis..masih busy exam agaknye..
Abang Leman..aku pon tatau dia busy buat aper..busy buat buat busy lah agaknye..hehehehe..

jangan marah eh baby..gurau gurau sayang..He is gonna pick me up and send me to Ipoh lusa, so aku kena lah berbuat baik terhadap bakal roomate aku nih..I leviu so much my bakal roomate..between everyone yang pernah jadik roomateku (nana, intan, skin, ratna and Aisyah)..i paling sayanngggg bakal roomate yang ini! hahhaha..just kidding girls..you girls were great too..
AKU..masih busy tak buat apepe..huhuhuh..dah abeskan semua episod tv series yg nak di tengok..kerja pon dah siapkan malam tadik..malam nih maybe nak betulkan soft copy nye aje..

so, there's nothing to bother me studying, except for my 2 newly acquired books from MPH tadik;
1) Nisha Minhas --> Tall, Dark & Handsome
2) Marian Keyes --> The Other Side of the Story
i loikeeee....

OKlah kawan2..lagik cepat dot start tengok desperate housewife, lagik cepat dot boleh buat kerja lain (hopefully this "kerja" lain includes studying..heheh)

Sehari dua nih, dot mood swing sket..feels like my tolerence level is lower by one notch..rasa cepat jek nak panas..sesape yg rasa tempias tuh mintak mahap lah yer..blame the PMS (best kan jadik fomfuan..orang lelaki mana bley guna alasan sebegini!..heehhehe)..

Have a nice week + weekend..

It's the best monday ever :)

It's 3.20 am..it Monday already..and Dot's so happy to embrace this Monday..

REason being --> Starting from right NOW, Dot is on her STUDY LEAVE!!!...yeayyy..that means not having to go to work..not having to work..not having to wake up early..yeayyyyyy....
jangan lah jeles sangat eh..sebab nye sekarang nih pon belom tido sebab Dot dah panik kerja yg patut nye siap hari Jumaat lepas tak siap lagik...kwang kwang kwang..

Tapi tinggal skeetttt jek lagik..tapi probably kena gi keja jugak esok..tapi yg penting takyah bangun pagi! hehehe..jangan jeles eh (Especially Cik Zaika yg sedang busy tahap bapak oltromen taro..yang takleh nak start cuti sampai hari Rabu..yang aku tau memang jeles ngan aku yg chumel nih!)

My big day is nearing...and I AM STILL AS BIG as my big day!!...uuwwaa...camaner nih...Last nite i just consumed what's suppose to be my last tiramisu and my last McD's cheese burger, before my wedding day..hahhahaha..wish me luck...Dot start diet esok....hahhaha..bak kata kawan dot --> "Last month pon kau cakap macam tuh jugak!!"...hahahahha..dah aku lapas jek..macam mana nak diet nye..Tapi memang kena lah..tengok kat majalah pengantin tuh..kalau pengantin tuh kurus semua pon nampak lawa..huhuhuhu...sedihhh..tak baik tau diskriminasi orang tembam..

Anyway..susah nye lah aku nak survive tanpa McDonald..Tiramisu i can reject anytime (chewahh..bulih pecaya ke?) ..tapi McDonald?/ I'M LOVING IT!!! huhuhuh..dot pegi mana mana jek..London, Paris, Singapore, Hong Kong, Indonesia ke mane jek lah..mesti carik McDonal jugak..paling tak pon Fries dia..tak Halal? kalau korang ragu2 tak halal ler jawap nye..tapi dot YAKIN..so dot belasah ajer lah...heheheh..lagipon kentang goreng kuali lain..tapi kalau pikir minyak dia buat daripada aper semua..jawapnye korang tengok aje lah aku makan..hehehe..
I'll be going back to Perak in a few days time..demmm..so many things to settle back there..agak hebat jugaklah aku organized sangatttt banyak mende mende daripada KL..untuk majlis kat Perak..

My sister and close frens mention Dot cerewet..memula tak percaya jugak! hahahah..tapi lepas beberapa bulan prepare untuk wedding nih..maybe betul jugak kut..every ribbon must be centered exactly as i would like it..every twist and turn inspected..pening kepala bapak aku nak melayan...hahahah..that's why most of my wedding preparation aku buat sendiri..so takleh nak komplen ah kalau penat..

Makin dekat makin neves.seb baik i have Zaika to share all my nervesness..sebab dia pon kawen same date..Tapi kali nih kena study bebetul ah..dah tak lalu nak tengok notes yg sama ulang2 kali..i might just "varmit"..huhuh..

Below are some word of advice i got from somewhere:

'What those words on your yearly performance review really means:"

1) Outgoing personality --> Always going out of the ofis..
2) Great presentation skills --> Able to bullshit..
3) Good communication skills --> spends lots of time on the phone..
4) Work is 1st priority --> too ugly to get a date..
5) Independence worker --> nobody knows what he/she does..
6) Quick thinking --> offers plausible excuses
7) Use logic on difficult job --> get someone else to do it..
8) Exceptionally goof judgement --> LUCKY!
9) keen sense of humour --> knows a lot of dirty jokes..
10) Career minded --> Back stabber
11) Loyal --> Could not get a job anywhere else (OUCHH!!!..hahahaha)
12) Relaxed attitude --> Sleeps @ desk..

HAPPY working on this lovely monday people..kerja rajin rajin..jangan malas malas..dot nak tengok Grey's then nak tidoooo..Abang Leman sayang, jangan tepon sayang awal2 sangat okeh! hehehehe..

PS : Raf and Shaz..korang dah bangun tido tepon aku!

MALU BANGAT GUE

Hari ini dot sungguh malu..memalukan..kemaluan..semua pon ader..huhuhuhu...Ceritanye bermula begini..

Dot da lambat pegi kerja..so alang2 lambat tuh kita lunch lah dulu kan..lepas dah siap2 tuh..dot pon tepon lah Vichuda..kedai makan dekat2 area umah tuh..suruh dia masakkan nasik paprik..so nanti bila dot sampai dah terus boleh makan..

So lepas dah order tuh, tuh pon tepon lah abah (missed call and abah tepon balik..hehehe..cheapskate)..then sambil borak2 ngan abah drive pegi Vichuda sana..bila masuk restoran..nasik paprik pon dah sedia terhidang atas meja..wahh..bagus..sungguh pantas sekali..so sambil cakap tepon..sambil order air..and sambil start makan..sungguh sedap sekali..yum yum..sekali air pon sampai..then terus trigger kat fikiran aku..berapa ringgit eh? and then terus teringat... --->>>> DALAM BEG ADE RM2 and beberapa keping duit syiling.............. uuuuuuwwwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaaa........camaner nak buat nih!!! ...segera check beg..cukup RM3.10...huhuhuhhu..nak bayar barli ais lepas lah..nasik paprik mau 5-6 ringgit..jgn panik dulu..dalam keta mungkin ade singgit dua lagik..

Then makan lah jugak..abah dah gelak2 kan all the way from Perak okeh..huhuhuh..dot nak makan pon dah tak lalu..rasa cam pasir dah nasik paprik yg sebentar tadik begitu enak dan menyelerakan...ishhhkkkk..macamana eh aku nak cakap ngan kakak nih..dah ler lunch hour..orang penuh satu kedai..then lepas makan (tak lalu abeskan pon sebab pikir malu yg terpaksa di tanggung!!)..dot pon suruh lah adik tuh kira..RM7.50 semua..ok..dot pon angkat buntut + beg tangan + beg laptop..dot pon pergi lah kat kakak yg jaga cashier tuh..dengan muka yg sgt kiyut lagik innocent..dot pon cakap cengginih --> " Kakkk..saya nak pegi kereta sekejap tengok ade duit tak..kalau takde duit saya nak kena balik rumah dulu amik duit" ..lepas dah cakap nih muka dot dah biru dahh..tak pandang da kiri kanan depan belakang..huhuhhu..

maluuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.....

Then dot pon sua lah beg laptop, nak buat cagaran kononnya..tapi kakak tuh nampak cam konfius jek..so dot pon tak tunggu lama..terus ler belah masuk kereta..paranoid jugak takor kena kejar dari belakang..hahahhaha..then dalam kereta pon ader RM2 lebey jek..then dengan muka yg sangat sebal..tutup pintu and start enjin..hahahah...i was laughing and talking to my kiyut self all the way home..buduh betul..tak pernah di buat orang..takkan nak dine and dash kot..at least carik ah restoran best sket.,.setakat Vichuda tak berbaloi..and as Abah's saying --> "kad kredit pon tak laku!"...hahahaha..so lepas amik duit patah lah balik kedai tuh melangsaikan hutang...hahahaha....hahahahhaa..kakak tuh dah senyum2 jek..dot apologized ade lah nak dekat 2 juta kali...hhahahaha...mau seminggu nih aku tak makan nasik paprik kat situ..hhuhuhu...

This scenario is soooo ME!!!...hahahaha..My close frens could vouch me on that self declaration..i'm the kind of girl who 1) paid her parking ticket in the autopay machine, took the change and left (then masok kereta baru menggelabah carik tiket dah hilang..hahaha..dah jadik a few times 2) paid her purchases, took the change and left..WITHOUT the purchases... hahahaha..nih pon dah kadik a few times.. and many other "cartoon" stunt.. hhahahaha...macamana ler aku nak jaga laki lepas nih..

Next week nak start study leave dah..and my work still tak abes lagik..huhuhh...
A fren of mine is feeling particular down at the moment..I just hope she know what she wants and the risk associated with it..She's a big girl and she can take care of herself..
Another close fren of mine, might be upset with me at the moment..cause i kept a big secret from her..but it is not my secret..and i did make a promise that i'm bound to keep..so i'm not really sure where do i stand..huhuhu..anyway, belanja her karaoke would totally makes her forgive me..heeheh..(if she's even angry at me)..

Dot "bujang" this week..Leman janji nak balik tapi tak jadik pulak..so whateverrrr...keep on repeating "kita dah nak kawen dah!"..so what!! that does not mean that i dun want to see your face until our wedding day! geram pon ader..not cause i cant understand and tolerate him..but cause he's always promising and not knowing how to keep them..and him throwing the stupid excuses as "Kita dah nak kawen dah!" totally doesnt help ok..But since im equally busy, whateverr..

I was riding in a lift earlier today, and there's a really cute baby inside..and his toddler brother who's equally cute sucking on his milk bottle..That is one thing that could put a smile on my face..no matter how moody or tired or angry i am..a baby (especially cute ones! huhuhhu)..but only when they are making cute faces or doing cute things that babies do..hehehe..but when they start yowling..I'll pass them to their own mothers within seconds..hahahaha.. (nanti anak sendiri nak pass kat sape lah agak nye..harus lah pass pada Leman kan! hehehhehe)..
and i'm also smiling tonite cause i got about 168 episode of Oggy and the Cockroaches..hehehhe..Thanks to Alex..I'm a big big fan of this cartoon..heheheh...tak tido lah aku malam nih..

Goodnite..mwwahhhs...

109 Month-versery

Today mark another month of Ina-Leman's relationship..hehehe..

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MY BELOVED FIANCE...

I am so very very very to steal his heart at the tender age of 17..(Sorry, Im not returning it ever ok!)..

Tadik tengok Wild Hogs..setelah begitu ketinggalan zaman (even compared to my 59 years old happening father)..OK lah..it was fun..but not to the standard or my faveret Pirates of the C and Harry Potter..hehehe..ingat nak marathon Spidey 3 lepas tuh..tapi kesian plak kat Leman..nanti mesti penat nak balik Bangi jauh..

Hari ini dot sungguh rajin membantu Ayong di dapur..our menu today were Spageti (tak burn okeh kawan2 kali ini), Garlic Bread, Fruit Salad, Chicken wings (courtesy of Azie - the future sister in law), and desert of Puding Mango (Azie jugak) and buah jambu air Tapah (Leman beli and bayar, tapi aku yg kupas)..hahahahha...

Aku di assigned potong bawang..uwwaa...menci gile kerja nih..sampai sekarang tangan aku yg selalunye berbau losyen nih berbau bawang...dah basuh and sabun and letak perfum, losyen etc still the smell lingers..next time harus pakai glove gitu..over tau!!

Kad kawen dah start distribute sket sket..hahaha..klakar tgk Leman cuba menyedapkan hati sendiri..dot dah malas dah..dah bayar dah pon..cantik tak cantik whatever lah..mungkin org tgk and kata harga tak setimpal card..but the reality is, charge of colour tone tak sama..or maybe jugak kitaorg kena rip off..but like i said earlier..WHATEVER!!!

Esok Isnin..malassss betullll...Monday blues..

Dot si Dramaqueen

Today dot sungguh sungguh lah syahdu..heeiiii..dramaqueen betol lah diriku ini.. huhuhuhhu..remember yesterday nite i blogged that the partner wanted to see me (plus few lucky others..)..hehehe..

then lepas dia bagi mukhadimah sket..dia pon tanye lah.."I just wanted to know what's distracting you??" who want to start first..

Sebab dot btul2 dok sbelah dia..dot pon mula lah..salam idak aper dia..pembukaan kata adalah lebey kurang seperti berikot..

"For me its really personal..Second half of Last year was very very difficult for me..my mom was diagnosed with cancer in April 2006..and she passed away in October 2006..bye this time i was talking so very unclearly as air mata kluar seperti paip bocorrr..sunggguuuuhhhh dramaaaquueennnn you olllsss...

tapi bukan mak sengaja..bukan juga di buat2..memang dari malam tadik hati dah rasa tak sedap..mood pon dah tinggal 10% masa pegi keja tadik..dot pon tak sangka boleh termenangis depan partner and roomful of strangers..even tho takler stranger sgt cause i know most of my frens tadik..tapi still malu..macam lemah sgt..that what i said..selalu dot cakap (I've been having conversation about the death of my mom more than i remember..and nowadays most of the time tak nangis pon..paling kuat pon mengalir sket jek..sebab cakap pada mulut jek..tak register kat hati!)..tapi tadik..lepas dah start sebak tuh..all the way masa bercakap tak leh stop menangis..siap tersedu sedan lagik bila dah berenti nangis tuh....wakakakakakaka....

mesti partner tuh tergezut gilerr..mesti dia ingat aku insan yg lemah..huhuhuh..seb baik kawan aku tadik tak menangis sama sebab dia kesian kat aku..hahahha...lepas dah bercakap tanpa henti..and dah kesat air mata..seb baik tak berhingus hingus you ollss..then barulah sambung session...

Aku rasa partner tuh dah stun, terus dia tak jadik tanye budak budak lain..terus proceed second agenda jek..hehehhe...Sorry lah kengkawan, saya ter-emosi sekejap..
Sekarang berada di atas katil baru..dah mengantuk dah..hati pon dah tenang balik..high possibility nak push forward my study leave..amik 2 weeks instead of one..tuh pon kena amik unpaid..huhuhu..makin sengkek ler daku..tapi kenalah jugak kau tim kan job sekarang nih dalam masa seminggu instead of 2 minggu..

Esok bakal roomate janji nak balik..petang baru sampai..ishk, tak caye jek..biasa kalau janji pagi sampai petang, kalau nih dah janji petang? heheheh..nanti sampai2 jek kat aku dah lembik lembik..penat lah aper lah..tapi dia tgk bola sampai ke subuh kat kedai mamak dia tak penat..itulah lelaki...hehehehhe...

Konferm lepas kawen nih berebut roomate dengan abang aku..sekarang nih pon pantang bersua diaorg asek winning eleven..Banyak betul orang nak kawen tahun nih..

Kad jemputan yg baru di terima;

1) Fatih & Erly (27 May 2007 @ Manjung) --> insyaallah hadir
2) Rafiza & Johari (8 June 2007 @ Dwn Perdana) --> Insyaallah hadir
3) Shahril & Wife (3 June 2007 @ Perak) --> Aiseymannn..mintak mahap lah babe, gua dah dekat sangat nak exam tuh!! Nanti aku kirimkan hadiah ok..hehehe..
4) Zaika & Hubby (7 July 2007) --> Sebuk betul nak kawen sama sama dengan aku..side lelaki pon sama sama jugak..dah aku takleh nak hadir majlis dia..dia takleh nak hadir majlis aku...hahaha..
5) Irina & Hasan.. and banyak lah lagik..

Wadoh wadoh dong, mata nak terkebil kebil..ngantuk dah..
Selamat tidur..

Hati tak tenang...

Ishk..its alredi 112 am and aku still rasa tak boleh tido lagik..Perasaan bercampo aduk macam nestum..and my brain refure to shut down for the day..

Esok pagi dah tentu aper yg menanti..Partner nak jumpa..konferm lah nak kena brain wash nih..malas betul..Memang lah salah aku jugak..tapi dah memang nak fail..takkan nak suruh aku terjun tingkap kot? lagipon tingkap kat umah aku tak tinggi sgt, paling kuat pon patah kaki masok sepital jek...eehhehe..

Memang lah aku tau aku kena pass kan ACCA aku tuh..tapi selalu bile dapat study leave..aku agak lupa daratan sikit lah..okla..agak lupa daratan banyak lah..hehehehe..kalau cuti 5 minggu..lepas dah abes 3 minggu baru panic nak carik buku..subjek plak ader 4..nak tanak terpaksa spot question..and focus only 2 out of the 4..lagipon masa ujung ujung tuh..emosi pon masih tak berapa stabil lepas kehilangan mak..tapi i did study my bestest for the 2 out of the 4 subject..memang nekad betul2 lah nak pass..yg satu paper kali ketiga aku amik last round, memang aku study sungguh2 nak kasik pass..sikit jek lagik markah nak pass pon the last 2 round..

Tapi bila result keluar..still fail subject tuh..nak kata aku buduh..agak lah jugak berperasaan begitu..tapi like i said..dah fail..takkan nak monyok lelama..life goes on..kerja berlambak lambak bertimbun2..tak sempat pon nak dwell lelama..tapi bila esok nak kena panggil lagik..agak down lah jugak sebenarnye...huhuhhuh...
Kalau boss tuh tau aku amik cuti study seminggu..tapi amik cuti kawen 3 minggu...huhuhuhuhuh...mesti berdarah telinga aku nak dengar agaknye...hehehehe...kawan sekali seumur hidup ajer maa..takleh nak repeat repeat setahun 2 kali...hahahah...
Itu hari pun dah berperasaan serba salah dah..ACCA nak tukar syllibus dah Dec nih..June nih last seating syllibus lama..kalau ikotkan perasaan..aku dah register 3 subjek..abeskan semua June nih..tapi aku duduk dulu, pikir pikir balik..not to sound too pessimistic or anything..tapi confirm fail nanti..so what for throwing away and wasting my already scarce money..hahaha...Satu paper nih pon abah yg bayar..aku sengkek sungguh bulan lepas, dan bulan ini, dan pastinya bulan akan datang juga!! hahahaha...But by hook or crook, kena gak abeskan paper yg tak lepas lepas tuh June nih..Yg lagik 2 tuh kita defer dulu amik Dec nanti..Leman pon dah janji nak teman study..(ye ke? macam tak percaya jek..mesti time aku sibuk study dia sebuk main play station 2 dengan abang ipar dia)..

The only self motivation is LONDON..
Tapi nanti time study leave tuh, byk woo orang kawen..conferm lah aku nak kena attend kan...hahahah...Then lepas balik orang kawen mesti aku plak berangan angan nak kawen..hahaha..miang lalang...

Ishk..rasa macam tak berapa sihat jek..tekak pon sakit..Tak best betul..

Wedding preparation going well and according to plan;

1) Kad Kawen --> Done. Awaiting suitable time for distribution..
2) Pelamin + Mak Andam + Baju Sanding --> Booked..tapi belom abes bayar..uwaa..pokai lah lagik..
3) Photographer --> Booked! Tapi belom bayar jugak..uwwaaaa...
4) HIV Test --> Done..yeay..
5) Jumpa Kadi --> End of month..
6) Berkat --> Done..Alhamdullillah..berbaloi sakit pinggang 2-3 hari nak siapkan..
7) Berkat VIP --> Done..
8) Gift for frens --> Done..
9) Bunga pahar for Bersanding malam --> Done..
10) Bunga Telur for Bersanding siang --> To buy
11) Baju nikah --> Done..Thank you very much to my cousin Sari for her wedding gift --> Jahitan manik penuh satu baju!! She spent almost 5 months completing it..in between her own busy schedule with her work + leisure + sleep + fiance..heheheh..muahhsss...
12) Diet --> U-Zap working on Overtime to offset any Roti BOM consumption @ Idaman...hahahah...dream on..
13) Mata tare panda --> Still there..
14) Baju Bersanding side groom and malam --> @ tailor tambah manik lagik..more sequin, less money in my bank..ahahaha...
15) Bilik tido --> Berserah kepada takdir..hahaha..or more tepat..berserah kepada Wan Wok and Mak yang yg baik hati...
16) Bunga2an --> Assigned to Mak Yang
17) Bekas Hantaran --> Thank you very much Mak Yang..i really really love them..rasa nak mintak tukar ngan leman so that i can keep them for myself..hehehe..agak2 kalau mintak 3 daripada bakal mak mertua, dia tukar fikiran tak nak amik aku buat menantu??
18) Hantaran --> Ader 2 lagik tak beli..Duit2..di manakah kau duit?
19) Cuti kawen --> 3 minggu
20) Honeymoon package --> Not confirmed
21 ) Flight ticket --> Confirmed! hahahah..funny..kalau last minute nanti penuh, kita tido kat airport jek ok cayang..
22) Katering + Kenduri Kendara --> Assigned to Abah..
23) Baju Khatam Quran --> Done..Nak kena praktis selalu nih..kang org kata nyanyi dangdut reti..ngaji tak tak reti..hehehehe..

So there goes..most of the things have been completed..tapi agak ngeri bila memikirkan persiapan kat Perak, yg terpaksa di handle oleh abah sorang2..

Lepas kawen nanti, cik abang sayang pindah duduk sinih..so banyak lah barang2 aku nak kena clear..kasik space untuk roomate baru nanti..Leman dah ugut nak buang banyak gile barang2 aku..huhuhu..kejam..Daripada 5 petak almari..terpaksa kosongkan 2 petak untuk roomate baru nanti..muat ke? takpe..kalau tak muat kita tumpang bilik Ayong..hehehe

Okla, dah blog nih dah tenang sket hati..Marilah kita cuba cuba pejam mata..esok kang tak larat plak nak bangun pukul 7 pagi..meeting pukul 9..apsal ler dia buat meeting awal2 sgt..Pepagi tuh selalu jam..Stress lagik tuh..

Lagik satu stress pasal stupid appraisal..malas nak bukak topic..redha jek lah..appraisalnya tak stupid, tapi the complication of the completion process yg stupid!! demmit..

List of movies that i want to watch;
1) Spidey 3
2) Wild Hogs (kalau ader lagik)
3) Sumolah
4) 28 Days Later
5) Cinta Pertama (tatau lah cerita ape nih..)

Wahh..tuh dah 50 hengget tuh..Kata takde duit...hehehe..tapi dot tgh stress..so kena la destress cause stress not good for my health..kan..kan..Abang leman, mintak subsidi 50% boleh?? hehehhe..

GoodNite..Good Morning..

Frens

Tadik dah puas tido siang..so sekarang dah lewat pon mata belom sleepy..huhuhh..surfing2 frenster..teringat kat kawan kawan lama selama membesar sebesar sekarang nih..hahahha..jom kita flashback..

Tadika : Ingat2 lupa..tak salah aku kawan baik masa nih nama dia Noryanti Azila..suka berkelakuan notty tapi chumel bersama sama..so kalau kena marah or denda pon bersama sama jugak lah..

Darjah 1-2 : Kawan baik masa nih nama Kamal Asyraf..dia pindah sekolah lain masa darjah 2..Masuk sekolah semua lelaki..Rugi Rugi..memang rapat lah kita org dulu..main kejar kejar..pukul pukul..cinta2 jek tak main..hahhaha...tapi maybe aku jek yg iktiraf dia kawan baik aku time nih..hehehe..Masa aku Form 1 kot ader terjumpa dia balik..tapi mase nih dah nak meningkat remaja..so malu malu..tapi dia nih memang hensem (pada pandangan mata dot yg berumur 13 tahun..hehehehe)..tapi rasa nye sekarang pon dia hensem lagik kot..

Darjah 3- 5 : Bestfren Norashikin Ishak and Norashikin Hamzah..Shikin Ishak dulu duduk sebelah umah parents aku jek..dia nih memang pandai..so suka lah bersaing saing...tapi bertahun tahun satu kelas belom pernah aku dapat kalahkan dia..kalau dia nombo satu aku nombo 2 jek..hahaha..agak nye dari kecik kecik nih aku dah ader termakan semuts nih..(patutlah sekarang makin blur!!)

Darjah 6 : Bestfren Nur Adelina Noruddin..dulu semua org panggil kitaorg kembar..we're very very very close..dia dah kawen dah sekarang..Terpisah bila dia pegi Asrama Penuh (Sekolah MEn Agama lagik)..

Form 1 : Bear in mind that i was studying at the same school (SMJK Methodist Ayer Tawar) daripada Tadika sampai lah Form 4..

So in Form 1..most of my frens dah either pindah masok asrama..or berpindah tempah tinggah..Tinggal lah dot sensorang..dot dapat 3A1B jek (Masa tuh rasa nye macam dah musnah masa depan..huhuhuh..sebab tak dpt masuk asrama)..tapi abah memang tak galakkan pon dot masuk asrama masa form 1..sebab nanti dia tinggal berdua ngan mak jek..heheheh...Masa Form 1-2 best fren lelaki balik..Shahril Nawawi ngan Khairul Husni..Shahril nih memang member dari darjah 1..tapi KH tuh baru start baik masa Form 1..Ustazah dulu suka gossipkan aku ngan KH..seb baik dia tak boikot aku (Sebab masa darjah 3-6 KH kena gossip dgn Adelina..so sepatah perkataan pon dia tak pernah bertukar dgn Adelina..hahahahaha...poyoooo lah kau KH)...tapi kitaorg memang baik lah bertiga..Punye sempoi sampai aku leh tanye diaorg dah wet dream ke belom masa tuh...hahahhaha...aku ingat lagik muka diorang blur nak mampos (mampos aku leman merajuk kalau dia baca nih..hahahah)...Tapi masa tuh aku tanye dengan jujur jek..takde maksud apepe pon..then masa Form 2 ke Form 3..baru diaorg paham soklan aku..gile lagging ah..
Form 3 : Adelina balik from Manchester..masok sekolah aku balik..so we continue our frenship where we left it off masa Darjah 6..Like i said, KH tak pernah bercakap dgn Adelina (eventho sekelas..Adelina pon heran kenape..hahahha..next time aku nak kena tanye KH lah..)..so bila Adelina baik ngan aku, KH pon dah tak byk cakap, bila Adelina ade sebelah aku (which is like most of the time)..tapi dgn aku dia still baik..

Form 4 : Adelina masuk MRSM..aku masok Bainun lambat sket..Lets talk about dorm mates..
Aku ingat lagik dulu masa aku memula masok..aku kena boikot..aku pon konfius jugak kenapa..rasa aku dulu masa aku kat sekolah lama..takde lah masalah macam nih..nak kata aku menggedik..tidak sama sekali..so aku agak sedih lah jugak..Tapi adik adik dorm aku baik baik belaka..Aku paling rapat ngan Asimah Noor..Member2 paling rapat adalah Yat Rahim (org pertama yg declare pemboikotan terhadap aku..huhuhuh)..kesian aku kan..Rina..Shemy..Sue Anne ngan Laili..lama jugak aku kena boikot..masa kena boikot..nak makan pon takde kawan..kesian betul..seb baik aku tak fobia terus telipon abah mintak tukar balik masok sekolah lama (Ego ooohhh..aku yg beriya iya nak masok Bainun tuh dulu!!..hahahah)..aku go with the flow jek selama seminggu 2 jugak diaorang boikot aku (geng2 yg aku sebut tadik)...Masa nih aku jugak bercinta buat pertama kali nya..(yeahh..leman is still sore until this day why i choose that guy)..his name is RR..hahahahha..budak nih cute nak mampos..walaupon dia muda setahun daripada aku (merasa dapat abang muda sekejap)..Dia kira first official boifren aku lah..Kitaorg couple setahun lepas tuh dia ade girlfren lain..cis..betapa hancur luluh nya hati ini...

2 bulan jekkk..lepas tuh ade leman mengubat luka...heheheheh...Actually sepanjang bercinta ngan RR pon, byk org gossipkan dgn leman..memang ade minat leman pon dalam diam2..tapi masa tuh leman pon ade girlfren (duduk sebelah dorm aku..takut gile masa mula2 couple ngan leman dulu..hahahaha)..tapi dia baik..tak pernah marah aku pon..actually memang bukan salah aku..aku bukan perampas..leman yg break tapi dia declare sorang2 jek..dia consider dia dah break sejak Form 3, tapi dia tak bagitau ex-awek dia tuh..saiko punya leman...hehehehe...
Bercinta ngan Leman masa Form 5..Masa form 5 nih pon kena boikot sekali lagik...huhuhuh...

kalau aku nih jenis low self esteem, dah lama dah fail SPM..byk btol dugaan..kali nih aku pon tak ingat kenape..yg aku ingat..sepanjang panjang kena boikot tuh..sebab kitaorg ade geng..satu ahli dalam geng tuh start boikot, yg lain pon ikot sama..and selama hari nih aku makan ngan diaorg, abes lepas kena boikot tatau nak gi makan ngan sapa..kesian kesian..seb baik ade adik2 dorm yg baik..dulu paling rapat ngan sheda, anis ngan amy..budak2 tuh skrg semua dah besar panjang dah masok uni..dah tua aku nih..huhuhuh)..Anyway, im really thankful to Rina sebab sepanjang kena boikot tuh, dia jek lah yg tak ikot boikot aku..Lepas tuh aku start baik dgn Johnny, Mazura, Yana..So lepas dah tak kena boikot, aku macam ade 2 group..

Sapa yg kenal aku..aku sebenarnye takde lah jahat..gedik pon idak..baik sgt pon takde ler jugak kan..hehehe..im just a happy go lucky old girl..kalau ade masalah ape tak puas hati..bagitau up front..This brings us to the next phase of my life..University..

First year kat Melaka..i was so very very close with this girl..sama2 from Bainun..Fad nama dia..kemana aje selalu berdua..she's my roomate..tapi towards the end tuh..bergadoh jugak...confius confius..right before the final exam..so aku sakit hati sakit mata..angkat barang gi tumpang umah member lain kat luar..seb baik boleh jek fokus belajar..stress gila ok..akku paling mence org ajak bergadoh bende kecik kecik..ungkit2..nak ungkit buat ape..mende semua dah lepas..dulu masa jadik tanak marah..dah setahun simpan tetiba kluar semua..saiko..saiko...Anyway, im really thankful to Suzie, Maz and Ayu..they are the ones who stand by me during this difficult time..

2nd year, pindah Cyber..me and my ex roomate dah make peace..but the frenship has broken and cannot be mended..which i dont mind actually...Kat Cyber barulah bahagia balik..
Sepanjang 3 tahun my close frens are;
Kat bilik + rakan berpoye poye = Nana, Intan, Jue, Pojee, Nita, Odah, Skin and Aiwa..They always make my life fun and filled with laughter and happiness..
Kat kelas + rakan berpoye poye jugak = Shaz, Nadiah, Norli, zaza and Farah (They make Accounting seems not too bad!)

Then abes belajar..PIndah Cyberia..where i met more new frens..which i totally adore..even tho they're a tad younger than me (elee..setahun pon nak berkira korang..)..I love Ratna, Tipah, Fatih and Aisyah Besar..Diaorng student..and aku bekerja kay HSBC UK time..so bila aku balik jek pukul 12 malam diaorng masih belom tido..bising jek umah selalu semua kaki bercakap..hahaha..Dulu masa duduk sebilik ngan Aisyah satu sem..dia selalu dengki aku tak payah bangun pegi kelas, (dulu start keja kol 3 petang..so leh tido sampai kol 2 petang....hahahaha)...so sebelom dia pegi kelas..dia selalu TERTUTUP kipas..geram betull..terpaksa aku bangun jugak bukak balik..konfius skejap ingat kan mimpi dah pindah Africa..bangun tido berpeloh peloh..rupanye si Aisyah tuh tutup kipas lagik...huuhuhhu...

Then next sem kitaorg rotate..aku duduk ngan Ratna..awek sorang nih cun giler mata kuyu ajek..tapi dia selalu tido awal..and aku selalu bangun lambat..so kitaorg selalu masok bilik dgn sgt berhati hati..tanak disturb one of us yg tgh tido..hehehe...

Dgn bebudak nih semua..diaorg tak berkira (aku pon tak berkira jugak tau! hehehe)..selalu jek pinjam meminjam baju or handbeg or whatever sesama sendiri..tapi sekarang diaorg nak pinjam baju aku pon takleh sebab longgar..aku dah membesar sekali hingga 2 kali ganda as compared masa keja kat HSBC dulu...huhuhuhuhuhu..blame the excessive drop in my metabolisme rate...
Nevertheless, i really love all these girls..Im so lucky to have known then (starting with a random forward msg asking for any room to let tau!)...

Then after 1 year..aku pindah duduk dgn Ija kat Puchong..dgn Didie..Paling sangat sangat rapat dengan Ija lah..sebab keja sekali..Didi keja waktu lain..ija lah kawan paling rapat masa keja kat HSBC dulu..Again..im also lucky to have her as my fren..

Then tukar kerja PwC..Jue masok ganti tempat Didie..Jue memang member masa Universiti dulu..so memang rapat ngan dia..

And then there's Shaz (Uni mate dulu), Endran, Irin, Alisa, Nizam and Aty..But now my closest frens in the firm are Shaz, Nizam, Raf, Endran, Louisa and Izwain...Love them loads..Dont think i would survive in the firm without all of them...

In conclusion..I am very happy to be all your frens..I have loads and loads of other frens not mention above..and im equally gald and thankful to be your fren...

To all my close frens, each of you have had an impact in my life..Of course, without need to be mention..Leman is also one of my Closest closest "fren"..and he's the only one of my Sharing of HEart kind of fren...hehehehe..(I love you too yayang.."blush)..I am really thankful to be your frens..

As we move on with our lives..we tend to grew apart from one or two or more of our close frens..But if the relationship is strong enough..it can survive anything..Another thing that i always remind myself is, make an effort..make sure i dont lost contact with all my closest and treasured frens..But once in a while when i'm too busy with work, with family, with studies, with love, with my wedding preparation, with sleep and with television series, do remind me and send a message my way ya..

After 26 years of life..another meaningful life leasson that i obtained is --> True frens are hard to come by..and they makes your life less shitty..or in a gentler way; "Frens make life bearable"..

Dot signing off at 237am..Goodnite..

Twingkel twingkel littel setar

Pagi tadik abah dah balik Perak..and i misses him already..rasa kosong and boring umah nih abah takde kat sinih..i really would like him to move permanently with us here, but he insists that he needs to be at Perak also, to take care for our home there..but the saddest thing is he'll be alone! Which worries me most of the time..but naseb baik lah handphone ade..tapi henphone aku slalu jek takde credit...(hahahhaha..seorang exec yg miskin)..tapi lepas ah setakat nak wat missed call pada abah...hehehehe...

Abah is my wedding planner..he's the best that i could ever hope for..ke hulu ke hilir ikot jek aku to settle my preparations..tak komplen sikit pon..siap dia kena hulur duit dulu sekali sekala ader lah..hehehehe..like i said..im one miskin exec..but fret not abah..ina ade maintain buku 555... ;)
Kengkadang people always asked and always usik him bila dia nak kawen baru..sometimes i myself usik usik him..seriously, i dun think i mind, but hopefully not so soon lah..last week one of my uncle tersalah usik in front of my grandma..hahahaha...merah padam muka uncle i bila dia teringat my grandma ader kat situ..seb baik opah tak nangis..huhuhuh...But as far as i know, my dad has been the bestest husband to my arwah mak..right to the moment she closed her eyes..cuma di takdirkan umur mak tak panjang..siapa boleh melawan kuasa tuhan..ishk..alamak..dah nak start emo plak dah..lets change the subject..

Clock is ticking..kejapppp jek rasa baru bertunang ngan abang leman dulu..sedar tak sedar dah nak masok 18 bulan dah..and i really really like being someone's fiance..heheheh...
And i really really dun like to work nowadays..aiyohhhhhhhh...soooooooooooooooo lazyyyy...super duper duper lazy...seb baik peak period dah berlalu..at least until September..current client is situated at the heart of KL..stress jam i tell you..

PS : I so want to watch Wild Hogs..semua org dah tengok...huhuhuhu...and Spiderman...even my abah yg dah kategori warga emas tuh pon dah tengok spiderman (my sis bawak abah tgk one day before release date..jeles!) and also dah tengok wild hogs..tak abes abes dia bercerita pasal wild hogs tuh..weekend nih tak kira..ajak leman movie marathon...

Semalam, hari ini dan esok...

It's been a longgggggggggggg time since i last blog..hehe..Lots has taken place since then..

1) Kursus kawen dah attend --> Yeaayyyyy..i manage tu survive 2 hari penuh of kursus kawen..aku bangga dengan diri sendiri yg hanya tetido dengan penuh lena hanya masa one ustz tuh tgh lecture..sooooo cannot tahan alredi that time..lepas lunch..perut kenyang,..mata pon mulalah mengantuk..all in all..a very fun and interesting course..

2) HIV test pon dah check --> over the counter jek mak ulur tangan nyeh..konfius gak skejap..ingat ke kena masok bilik dulu or something, then dia mintak tangan kanan..aku hulur la..then terus kena "prick"..aku nih lemah sket bab bab jarum nih..leman dah buat kat tapah..but he come back especially to accompany me there..(thank you laling)..so masa aku kena prick tuh, aku takde lah gile nak intai kan..(last time i WATCH my fren's hand got prick dengan jarum masa klas biologi kat skolah dulu..aku yg beriya nak muntah and nak pitam!) ..hahahahha...so this time, seperti sejarah berulang kembali (masa kat sekolah dulu, aku beriya volunteer, tapi bila memember dah sapu kapas ubat, urut jari punya urut, tangan aku pucat tak berdaha.. hahaha..poyo jek..then tuh yg tukar org lain punya tangan..aku tgk pon dah lembik)..so masa nih pon..beriya nurse tuh kena tekan jari aku nak amik darah sikit..yg si leman darling tu pulak bising jek kat sebelah.."kenapa takde darah..sayang..takde darah..sayang takot ke..haa...takde darah tuh..!!" geram betul..makin stress jari aku...heheheheh...

3) Wedding kad pon dah siap --> macam nak patah pinggang aku memikol 1000 keping kad turun dari tingkat 2 pertama kompleks tuh..seb baik tak terberak...leman nih tak ci betul..all the hard work aku yg kena buat...aku seret jek plastic tuh sepanjang jalan..tuh pon dah sakit pinggang sebelah..huhuhu...

4) I've bought a bed..yeayy..tapi belom pasang lagik..ikea sale maa..again..i have to do all the hard work pasang katil..bertuah punya tunang...lepas nih kena pikir aper nak suruh dia belanja aku..heheheh...

5) Work has tone down a bit nowadays..would manage to have enuf rest and enuf rest if it's not for the ugly betty, grey's anatomy, prison break, heroes, desperate housewives, wedding bells and newly added to the list : Princess Lulu...huhuhuhuh

6) Most of the wedding preparation dah siap..kesian bapak aku bersengkang mata teman and tolong aku siapkan semua..muahhhs..sayang abah..you're the best!

7) Bila lah duit MTEN nak masuk nih..and duit claim..sengkek maut..

8) Tapi sengkek sengkek pon..aku sempat ikot kengkawan gi Melaka last week..seronok gila gi sana..MAKANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN jek...dari jejak jek kaki ke Melaka..sampai ler balik KL balik keesokkan nye..asekkk makannnnnnnnnnnn jek...hehehehhe..makin gomok lah eden...tapi dah burn banyak jugak fat masa meronda lama gile kat zoo melaka tuh...penattttttt gile...masa kat zoo singapore dulu aku and ayong and abah sebulat suara tak ronda on feet..naik lah train ke tram ke amende ke asalkan tak pasal jalan banyak banyak..tapi nih kengkawan aku sungguh bersemangat nak ronda satu zoo on foot...huhuhuhu...aku yg lemah dan tak ber stamina nih hampir merangkak nak sampai balik ke exit door...

9) 3 more weeks to my study leave...yeayyy...

10) wahhhh..tangan aku dah sebesar tangan beruang kat zoo tuh...uuuwwaaaa...makin gomok ini dong...harus lakukan sesuatu nih..takpe lah..tunggu abah balik perak dulu next week then kita start oke..bole percaya ke?? hahahhaha

Okeh..nak gi mandi, makan and pasang katil..seb baik abah still ade kat KL..sape lagik nak jadik mangsa tolong aku kan...hehehehe...

Dot signing off..Have a wonderful weekend everyone....

Cuti oh cuti..

It's 140am alredi..and i still am very much awake..
Demmmiittt..my sleep pattern dah haywire i tell you..
Nih semua KPJ nye pasal..huhuhhu...

Sekarang nih as early as 830 aku dah ngantok dah..sat sat gi kol 2 dah terjaga balik..huhuhuh...Tapi dah 2 hari nih even tho tak tido kol 8..still takleh tido sampai lah lewat pagi...

Uwwwaa...camaner nak cun nih..mata dah macam tare panda...uhhuhuh..maybe i shud consider a gothic kinda look for my big day..hehehe..tapi takkan masa nikah pon nak gothic kot..kang tok kadi ingat kena kawen paksa..tapi sebenarnye rela...hahahah..ishkk..dah makin gatal nih..harus nak kena kawen dah..heheheh...

Seb baik my beloved sista dah hadiahkan 2 cream mata..
1) Nivea Whitening Eye Cream with multiple white complex and
2) Advanced Night Repair Eye Recovery Complex...huhuhuh..complex sungguh bunyi nya..kalau tak ok lagik tatau lah aku..Last resort kita botox ajek...hehehe...gile saiko umur tak sampai 30 dah nak botox..

i was looking at my time table earlier..wahhhh..dah plan begitu byk cuti..cuti tahun nih satu pon tak amik lagik + campo cuti OT + campo cuti Study Leave + Cuti Marriage Leave..masih tak cukup lagik nihhhhh...huhuhuhuh..maner aku nak carik cuti dah!! Last resort kena Unpaid leave lah jawapnye..konferm misken bulan 12 nanti..

Ikot planning;
Bulan 6 apply cuti 7 hari for ACCA June 2007 Sitting..
Bulan 7 apply 15 hari cuti including marriage leave 3 hari..
Bulan 9 apply 3 hari lagik for Bali trip..
Bulan 10 apply 4 hari untuk Raya puasa..
Bulan 11 - 12 apply 18 hari (including 6 days unpaid leave tentatively) --> untuk ACCA Dec 2007 Sitting
Then sambung pulak untuk Hari Raya Qurban, Chistmas and extend trus sampai tahun baru...
Wahhhhhhhh..baik punya planning..once comp time aku approved jek..terus aku nak gi jumpa Kak Saba..hehehehe..

looking at all my cuti..tenang sket jiwa yg tgh bergelora bila pikir nak kena suffer dalam C**com nanti..uhuhuhuhuh...

As for my wedding preparation..aku rasa aku dah running behind schedule lah..huhuhu..nih mesti kelam kabut nanti nih..

1) Kursus kawen tak pegi pegi lagik!! asek delayed ajek..aku free...leman tak free..leman free..aku plak tak free..by hook or crook next next week kena pegi jugak..kalau zura penuh, cariklah tipah ke bedah ke timah ke..
2) Kad kawen pon tak siap siap agik..hehehe..camne nak siap kalau aku baru finalised last week..mau lagik 2-3 minggu nak siap..
3) Medical test pon tak amik lagik..this one is worrying cause kawan aku cakap, result amik masa 2-3 minggu..demmm..and then kadi plak nak jumpa aku at least 1 bulan setengah before the wedding date..tapi nak jumpa kadi semua borang2, sijil kursus + med test result mesti dah ader...
4) Tuh tak campo bende kecit kecit lagik..favours..VIP favours..bilik tido..Baju..Gambo.. huhhh..pening...

Duit plak abes cam ayor..huhuhuh...tambah pening...

Blissful Weekend..

It's been a longgggggggggg time that im having a very stress free weekend like tis one...happy sighh..so happy..

Yesterday woke up at 1130..went out for lunch at Charms and watched..shit..short term memory lost..can't even remember what's the movie title..the one with jen garner in it..haa..catch and release i tink..neway..i really like the movie..so happy ending..timothy oliphant or something is watchable anyway..heheh..then spend the rest of the day..nite and early morning chit chatting..a day very well spent with my long-time-no- see-ex-puchong-housemate Juju and Intan..

Slepppppppppppppzzz..woke up at 330pm!!!..demmit..soooooo overslept..being woken up by a phone call..caller ID --> Daddy!!...shuttttttttt..kantoi lah nanti ngan bakal bapak mentua bgn tido lambat..huhuh..dgn macho nye angkat tepon buat2 suara dah bgn..hahahha..neway..me + Leman sayang + my future family in law spend some quality time together gether..At The Curve and then KLCC..now @ 836pm..i'm feeling sleepy alredi...huhuhuh..serius my sleeping patterns is way hay wire for my liking..

Cepatnye monday esok!!

Yeeaahhuuuuu...

i'm baccccccccccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.........

wwwuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu...........

KPJ no more..its KTJ now..

Damn..I never tot i'd miss KL this much..FYI..im currently stuck at Mantin..huhuhuh..Sooooooo Ulu i tell you..I tot after KPJ..i could be sooooo stress free..But the grass is not that greener here...Im doing KTJ now..Lepas being stuck in hospitals of KPJ (Kumpulan Perubatan Johor) for 3 bloody hard months..Im stuck here at Mantin doing KTJ (Kolej Tuanku Jaafar) plak..seb baik seminggu jek kat sinih...Seriyes macam takde kehidupan..hasrat hati ku nak cari bakal bakal potential toyboy untuk aku dan rakan rakan hilang pabila sampai sampai jek sinih..dapat tau skolah tgh cutiii!!!hahahhahaha..harapan tinggal angan angan..

AKu dok kat hostel diaorg kat sinih..you know the rumours that there's air cond..yup..but on in their classrooms..bilik hostel diaorg nih ibarat 5 stars hotel lah untuk budak budak kecik yg baru nak belajar kenal dunia ittew..tapi untuk aku yg dah tua bangka tapi pengecut ini..tinggal kat hostel nih macam lagik teruk drp umah tumpangan ah kau or yg seangkatan dengan nya...
uuuwwwaaaaaaaaaaa....sedeyyyy...

bayangkan first day..terjaga nak gi kencing...tapi TAKOT..sebab toilet kat luar agak jauh..kalau dekat sebelah bilik pon belom tentu mak nak gi kencing sensowang nyeh..bangun tidoesok tuh sakit sakit pundi kencing ku..huhuhuh..gile saiko...nak kejut kawan tak sampai ati plak tgk member tgh sedap tido...jenuh lah berkira kira..nak gi ke tanak..gi ke tanak..gi ke tanak..then the ciken inside me came out..and terus jek lah cancelkan hasrat nak cuba memberanikan diri gi kencing sensorang...hahahahha...lagipon sekolah tengah cuti, so basically the 2 of us is the only one occupying this whole bloody massive building...huhuhuh..takotttt!!!!!!!!!!

I think my sleep pattern dah hay wire..KPJ punye pasal lah nih..imagine the last week..i've been putting on 16-18 hours a day of working days..in between of that..only manage to sleep between 2-4 hours jek...Gileee saikooo..by the end of that..aku da jadik cam zombie dah...seb baik berjaya jugak meet dateline yg gile babi tight tuh..If not, i think i'd be admiited to one of their hospitals instead of auditing them...huuhuhu..very very very near to an emotinonalbreakdown i tell you!! Its the worst experience so far..skrg kol 8 malam dah ngantoks bangat, confirm kena tido..then kol 1 pagi terjaga balik and sambung keja sampai 5 pagi..saikoooo i tell you...

Anyway, i'm unlucky enuf to be joining one of the audit team for the Company "where the birds has shifted to the right!"...ahhahaahaha..dun think the grass is gonna be greener there huh..
Sekolah nih gempak siyut..never seen anything like it..Bainun seems so kampungan..cause it is kampungan pon kan...hehehe..This is an elite boarding skool..cool giler..on top of the top of the world study and co-cur facilities, ader wire less connection i tell you..Student here mostly have their own laptop..makan kat sinih mewah mewah tak macam nasik kawah hostel lain..tapi study fees bebudak nih dah nak dekat sama dengan MMU..hahahahha....terpaksa mak kumpul duit dari sekarang kalau ade citer citer nak hantar anak anak mak masok sinih.. wuuuhhuuuuuu..verangannssss...

At the moment, post audit tiredness and lazyness is still very strong..cant wait until my study leave..and cant wait for my big day sebenarnya..So many things still on halt as i am very very very very very busy..even kursus kawen pon asek delay dari satu minggu ke satu minggu..aku free kengkadang si leman sayang itu plak tak free..

Dah amik my baju hari tuh..quite dissapinted at the outcome..another hard lesson learnt, other people's taste no matter how great it might be, would never be the same as your own..another one of my may stupid mistakes..hahahaha..i blame the semuts...
okla..need to continue working..dah jadik kiasu and poyo dah aku skrg asek keja sampai larut2 pagi..huhuh..tapi job nih seminggu jek kat sinih..and isnin hari tu dah sampai petang..so byk kerja nak cover dlm masa seminggu..takpe takpe..bersusah susan dahulu..bersenang senang kemudian..aminn..

Good Nite even tho its already morning..

Selamat Pagi Malaysia

Selamat Pagi Malaysia..

heheheh..It's 1:43am and dot baru jek sampai umah dalam half and hour tadik..huhuhuh...canne lah nak cantek mukaku ini..asek not enuf beauty sleep ajek...

Skrg nih stress betol..most of the time what i did is complaint and whine..especially towards my equally busy frens..mesti diaorang pon dah naik runsing..tapi memang penat ah this round..last round pon busy gak..tapi takde lah hehari balik kol satu pagi..huhuhu..kalau camnih camne nak siap project baju aku nih...

My beloved cousin Sari handles the major project..jahit beads pada baju nikah dot..dot plak handle minor project jek..jahit bead sket sket pada for baju khatam nanti..

As at date, alhamdullillah..everything is half done..OMG..my deposit money are EVERYWHERE ok..gile sengkek ah setiap kali tiba masa untuk bayar remaining bill..bulan nih saja baju siap..next month road tax keta plak due..then kad..then macam macam lah lagik mak nenek nye..abes duit edennnn...huhuhuhuh...

Sekarang nih asek ujan jek..aku plak asek malasss jek nak bangun pegi kerja pepagi..esok ade dinner date antara dua bakal family..neves neves..
next month nak masok anniversary yg ke-9 dah..tapi perasaan neves tuh tetap ade setiap kali berjumpa..hiks..harus tak nak mintak leman bagi smart tag jek untuk hadiah aniversary??hahahaha..praktikal siyut..tapi tak romantik langsung lah kan..

On the subject of "romantic"..semalam tunangku itu singgah ofis, ajak lunch..then dah masok bangunan ofis pon dia nak jugak pegang pegang tangan ku yg kiyut dan lembut bak baby dalam iklan baby johnson tuh..aku kata "kat ofis takleh pegang pegang tangan lah yang"...hahahah..then trus dia merajok...hahahaha..jatuh saham mak nyeh pegang pegang tgn kat ofis..mau kecoh makcik makcik typist tuh kata aku show off nanti..hehehehe..

but how sweet..next time i'll let you hold my hand ok darling...(mampos kalau nenek dia tau!! Dulu masa aku ikot family diaorang gi London, pagi first jejak bumi London tuh jek dah kena sound.."Kita orang Islam..tak boleh pegang pegang tangan org yg bukan muhrim!!") ..hahahaha.. ambik kau..trus tertusuk kat jantung..ouch ouch ouch...hahahhaha..tuh dah bukan agik pistol tuh..dah senapang gajah dah tuh...hehhehe..nevertheless..kitaorg curi curi jugak hold hands bila nenek tak nampak ; )

Sekarang aku tengah sibuk persuade abah to let me tak pakai tudung masa sanding nanti..huhuhhu...puas aku pujuk aku pakai complete set masa nikah, tapi mak nak pakai cucuk sanggul nyeh masa sanding n anti..lagipon mak tgk kat majalah, songket tabur meroon pakai tudung tak cantik...huhuhhu..puas sudah kufikirkan fesyen aper lah yg aku leh buat..tanak pakai tudung proper, tapi takleh free fair langsung...huhuhuh..dilema dilema..

Honeymoon dalam Malaysia jek yg mampu buat masa ini..im taking 3 weeks off..so right after groom's reception trus pegi honeymoon..tapi in September dah siap planning pergi bercuti ngan kengkawan ke Bali plak..December kalau ader rezeki lebih barulah leh planning gi 3rd honeymoon ke oversea..insyaallah..bahagia betol asek pegi bercuti jek..hehehe..macam kompeni bapak aku jek nak bagi cuti byk byk..cuti kawen pon 3 hari jek..rugi tak keja bank dapat 10 hari..huhuhhu..

Dot dah ader radio ok..tapi takde la cd player..at least its better than having to listen to my mp3 from speaker phone..dah lah leh store sket jek lagu..itu jek lah aku ulang2 hehari selama seminggu...hehehe..so happy..semalam abah hantar pergi kerja..so he managed to gave my car a face lift yesterday..love you daddy..hehehe..hutang masok dulu buku 555 ok..

One particular good fren of mine is feeling bluer than usual at the moment..I know its tough, but the roughs going to get better ok..we'll always be by your side to support you!!
Dah naik juling mata kau menaip..wireless nih plak tetiba disconnected plak..so tatau lah bila baru leh posting this entry..masa untuk tidur..Good Nite..

Emo...

March is almost over..and before i knew it, there about 3 months left before i will officially be Mrs Leman..Right now i have to admit, mix emotions every day..half : I'm ecstatic about my big day..tak sabar nak kawen..I am so in love with Leman and i think i'm falling more and more in love with him every single minutes..Another half of me keep thinking and missing my late mother..every single day!..Sometimes, i have to force myselfnot to think about her, cause i would SURELY ends up crying..in public, im always the happy go lucky and jovial self..But whenever i think of my mom, i'll sure feel sad..I still can't believe she's gone FOREVER...She has so much spirit in her and she has always inspire me to be the best i can possible be..See..tats why i dun like to talk about her..cause i always ends up crying my hearts out..

Nih my wedding date is nearing,the more and more im missing my mom..i can't even describe my feelings with words..Losing her is my worst nightmare..and is the toughest "dugaan" so far..I really really really wish i could spent more timewith her on her sick days..this regret sadly i would have to carry for the rest of my life..even not being there when she finished her last breath..would always make me sad..i don't think anyone knows how i really feel..not my family, not my fiance..not even my close frens..cause when i hang around them, i always put on my brave face..even if people or her frens mention her i would just shrugged it off..and try to change the subject quickly, before i ends up having an emo breakdown in front of them..

some of them always said "Kesian ye mak tak sempattengok Ina kawen!!"..deeee..that's not a good way to make me feel better okay..and I have no power and no control over it..only the Allah AlMighty has that power..Sedih Sedih..Most of my wedding preparation alhamdullilah is according to plan..Got loads of help and support from Abah..kesian jugak tgk dia terpaksa melibat kan diri hingga ke semua details..kalau arwah mak masih ada, confirm dia tak sesibuk ini..

Selalu lah aku nih macam nih..sometimes i am driving, and im hit with waves of sadness over missing my mom, and i would cry..sometimes im lazing around..and i ends up crying..sometimes tgh makan pon rasa nak nangis..cuma tunjuk and tak tunjuk jek perasaan pada org..Sebab orang lain pon byk masalah masing2,So aku jarang lah nak emotional tak tentu pasal..tapi serius, kengkadang or more exactly setiap masa..aku rindu sangat kat mak..bayang kan, dah takkan ade mak seumur hidup ni..

nih nak kawen lagi 3 bulan, memasak pon tak khatam lagik..tuh among other things..the only pesanan that she keeps reminding me masa dia tgh sakit sakit dulu, is that always treats my mother in law well..no matter what, always be nice to your mother in law..sedihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

still cant believe it..kengkadang kalau nak mintak pendapat ke..nak tanye itu ini ke..kena diam sejenak sebab nak kena remind myself that i no longer have the privilege of having her in my life..the only good thing about me being super duperextra busy nowadays is that i have no time to think of anything or anyone else besides from all those damn outstanding accounts...

Just a note to all of you out there,do appreciate your mother while you still can..never take her for granted..bila kena marah tuh jangan lah melawan..trust me bila dah takde emak, nak kena marah pon rasa rindu!!

There's so much more i wanted to say..to do and to share with my mom..but dah di takdirkan it stops at my age of 25..I would ALWAYS cherish all those 25 years with my mother forever,..

Akan ku ceritakan pada bakal anak anak aku nanti what a great grandmother she would be if she's still with us..no one would ever replace her in my heart..i miss you so very very much mak..Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat..amin..

Miss Independent

As manja as i would like myself to be..i can be independent whenever i choose to be as well..which is most of the time..

My good frens regards me as a person who would easily panicked..
hehehehe..yerp...100% true..back in the Uni days..i would make a list of all the datelines that i have to make..and fret over them for fear i would not be able to meet them..lucky for me, never once did i experience not meeting my Uni datelines..

Now it flows thru work..those Uni assignment seems picisan as compared to my work datelines..especially during this peak period..
As menggelabah as i am..so far i always managed to meet my datelines..at least die trying...hahaha...

Since i am a true easily gelabah kind of girl..that's why i associate myself around "chill" and calm individuals..growing up..my dad is always there for me..even now he's still my pillar of strenght..sometime, even he's miles away..in dire circumstances..i just needed to hear his voice and everything would seem better...(but it always involves some crying first lah kan)..hehehe..

Now, im lucky to have another such "cool" and "calm" man (except if it involves any spiders..hehehe)..kalau spider alamat kita jerit pekik lah sesama ok darling..and if leman's not there, i could always count on my few closest frens to back me up mentally and morally..

tapi i could also can be as strong and independent as circumstances allowed..
cembeng cembeng jugak..macho macho jugak wor...heheheh..how many of you girls..especially those with boifrens or fiance or husband..has ever sent your own car to the workshop to mend your broken window?? or wait for the tow truck in the middle of nowhere..??or went to file an accident report to the police and later claimed your insurance by yourself?? hahahah..banyak nye masalah dah kereta aku tuh..

I LOATH "lipas"...if there's anybody else around (with exception of my darling sister cause she's equally pengecut like me..hahah)..i'll always asked the other person whoever that might be (most of the time my cousin Sari or my brother Boy) to squash them..make me see the "bodies" even before i consider coming back into the room..but kalau dah takde sesape around..jerit pekik lah aku bunuh sendirik...hehehe..end result..lots of screaming and swearing in the middle of the night plus a dead lipas body...huhuhu..

Masa dapat berita mak dah meninggal dulu..aku tgh assigment kat Seremban..berjurai jurai air mata tuh..setengah jam jek dah sampai puchong balik..kalau tak cukup strong mau tak lalu nak pegang stereng kereta pon okay..

But, as strong and as independent as i could or would or have to be..it is always better to have someone i could count on..sometimes, nak gak manja manja kan..i would like to thank each and every important person that make my life meaningfull..i hope i could count on you (more than 1) whenever i needed you, and believe me when i say you could always count on me too..
goodnite..

PS: Lupa nak cerita..result ACCA dah kuar..3 Fail 1 jek Pass... uuuwwwaaa....sedeyyyyyyyyyyy...mak fail paper audit lagik nyeh..masuk nih dah 3 kali dah nih..mau muntah darah kaler purple bila tgk lagik skalik notes tuh nanti...huhuhu..bulan 6 nih exam lagik..tapi bulan 7 nak kawen dah..tatau ler leh concentrate ke idak nak exam nih..kot dah asek berangan nak kawen jek...hahahah...so maybe i'll just do my audit paper this round..and save the other 2 final paper for December..Wish me luck!

Bad Luck!!! Bad Day!!!

Siiiggghhhh...dunno where to even start...
Lets start with last nite..my bloody car got broken in AGAIN!!!!! uuuuuwwwaaaaaaaaaa...not to sound syirik or anything, but i think my car dah "suwei" ar..and needed to mandi bunga..hahahah..sedih siyut...ader kat porch tak hantar repair pon lagik..kali nih the son of a bitch..obviously another one..cause he did broke my window..bloody cilaka...buat abes duit aku jek nak kena repair tingkap..at least the drug addict previously tak pecah kan tingkap..expert sket..and tak curik my cd player..but tis one did...

uuuuuwwwwwwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...i miss you alredi my Sony X-Plod...and im sure it woud be long before i even manage to find your replacement..huhuhuhh...all my money is now focused for my wedding preparation...sob sob...at least dulu leh gak dgr lagu from lap top dalam kereta..tapi nih lap top IBM yg bangang nih the bateri wont last for more than 2 minutes..huhuhhu...terpaksa beli external radio kecik camnih..
Ishk..tapi seriyes bengang..dah lah balik kerja lambat jek minggu nih..selagi jam tak tukar hari baru..tok sah berangan lah nak balik..sekali penat2 tuh tgk plak kereta camtuh...huhuhuhh....sedihhhh sedihhh....

Last week managed to went for our pre-wedding photoshoot...i look TEMBAM...demmittttt..really need to cut off those carbs..but i love carbs..hehehehe...lepas makeup tuh..nak tukar baju, which we alredi altered earlier, sekali sarok kain...aiseyman...tak muat sehhh..ketat nak mampos macam balut nangka..mak dah panik dah uollssss...takkan menggemok sampai cam tuh sekali..all my own kebaya or seluar pon tak de le sekatat tuh..sampai tak leh zip...last last cine tuh amik kain sumbat kat kain yg berlubang kat bahagian bontot...hahahhaha...dah ternaik backside aku cam tonggek..nak posing duduk pon slow slow je uollsss...i hate being gemok...ishkkk...but i love foods...yum yum..cant help tergelak gelak bila abang photographer tuh suruh buat posing posing yg cliche and poyo..cam letak jari kat dagu and stuffs..hahhaha...funny....my fiance nye mata sepet sgt sgt..and byk sgt kali dia pejam bila amik gambar..ishkk..spoiler btol..penat mak posing cantik cantik nyeh..